The Life And Times Of Lil' Ryry

location: Home

mood: anxious

Broken reality theres no means of escape
Broken reality lookin' to leave this mind-state
But the more that I leave the harder it seems I come back
Now I'm livin' out these lies that I call my trap
And I call it that cuz I didn't do this intentionaly
What I now call my trap I used to call my fantasy
And why do I fantasize in order to leave the reality
Of not being able to relate personally or socially
Somtimes I wonder what it would be like to be respected
But until then I'll dream about bein' accepted
I wonder what it would feel like to be respected
All wrong no right no one no sun no light
This life this fight I'll hide
Inside no matter where you go you cant escape whats inside.
Man somebody get me out of this place
Of loneliness hopelessness depression and disgrace
At this pace I'm on the verge of self-destruction
With nothin' to go on but my self instruction
So what does that leave me
I try to communicate with the world but none of you out
There could perceive me
So instead of words I began to express through actions
So anger n rage become my mere satisfaction
Hate fills my being I'm seeing no means of release
So I escape into my fantasy where I live in peace
Here I can be anybody I want to here I can be anybody I choose too
Here in this place I feel good there's no restriction this place
Is so good that its becoming my addiction
I say I'm not lost but why am I searching
I say pain dont fade me but then again why am I hurtin'
I say I won't show emotion but yet
I cant hide these eyes that have been stained by tears
I say I can't be help back but yet I've
been in the same place for years
I say I wanna go free but something keeps me bound
I say I wanna go higher but my feet havent left the ground
man I told ya'll I didnt care but then
Again why is my heart so heavy
I told the world to bring it but deep down I knew I wasn't ready
I said I couldnt be deceived meanwhile I'm
Walking into the same old traps
I said I couldnt be broke as I watch my world collapse
Watch my world collapse  
No matter where you go you can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go you can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go you can't escape what's inside
No matter where I go

Tags: john reuben, lyrics, x-ray

Posted at 12:33 pm | Link | Leave a comment | Add to Memories | Tell a Friend

location: Home

mood: bouncy

music: Theme Song From Mash

=-(... o well. I hate it when my woman works and I have off. It's no fun. I usually have to entertain myself by sitting on the computer on livejournal or my Drag Racing game. Which is awesome btw. Go to newgrounds.com and search for Drag Racer V3. Anyways... I thought the summary of myself in my profile was a bit rough, so I'll be honest and clarify that. My name's Ryan. I live in Wisconsin. I have a 1995 Pontiac Sunfire that was recently fucked up in a semi accident. I work at Target if you hadn't guessed that (and I dislike that company). I'm 19 and went to school at Horlick in Racine and Parkway Christian Academy for most of my life. Graduated in 2005. I've worked at quite a few places... Pick'n'Save, UPS, Sentry, Radio Shack, and Target. All of which (except Pick'n'Save) blew. As far as hobbies are concerned, I love music... Listening to and playing it. I play bass and guitar. Body art will always be a favorite... (1 piercing and 11 tattoos). Cars are awesome even though mine's really messed up now. I enjoy tuning every so often. I took my Sunfire from about 125 horses to about 170 or so now. And I can't get enough of putting subs in cars. I love that big thud. As far as music goes, I like rock for the most part. I hate rap, country, pop, and any soul shit. Favorite bands: Mest, Pax217, Project 86, Lucerin Blue, Death Cab For Cutie, As I Lay Dying, The Postal Service, Jewel, Liz Phair, Underoath, In Flames, Rise Against, Sum 41, Blink 182, Angels And Airwaves, Anberlin, Alice In Chains, Blur, Blindside, Cake, CKY, Harvey Danger, The Exies, Foo Fighters, Nirvana, Avril Lavigne, Zao, Metallica, Slipknot, Korn, Ghoti Hook, Hawk Nelson, hed (PE), Good Charlotte, Taproot, Janes Addiction, Kutless, Lunahalo, Reality Check, Lit, MxPx, No Doubt, Orgy, Queens Of The Stoneage, Ra, Rancid, Seether, Trapt, Unwritten Law, Violent Femmes, Yellowcard, and an entire slew of others. If I had to pick a favorite, I'd say hed (PE). I am very happily spoken for. I love my woman with all my mind, body, soul, and heart. She's everything I've ever wanted.

Posted at 12:18 pm | Link | Leave a comment | Add to Memories | Tell a Friend

location: Home

mood: amused

Just kidding... Unless you work at Target. =-P

Posted at 04:24 pm | Link | Leave a comment | Add to Memories | Tell a Friend